So last week was spring break, which is why I wasn't able to update this blog at all. I spent the entire week with my boyfriend, so I never had the chance to sneak away and post anything. This also meant that I was really really bad at keeping up with my routine. I ate sooooo much this past week, especially this past weekend... I feel so gross and chubby blegh...
It really sucks because I did so much to lose those 10 pounds, and now I'm almost certain that I gained at least half of it back. I haven't been able to weigh myself yet, but I can see it in my belly.
And now school is starting up again, which I'm dreading (even though at the same time I'm kind of looking forward to getting back into my routine). I know that I'll be able to keep up with my diet as long as I'm at school/work all day, plus I'll be able to distract myself in the evenings with readings and assignments I have to complete. I really need to get this weight off, I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror any longer! During break I went to a friend's party, and a few people were pointing out how I was looking more slim and that I was looking good. This equals guilt for eating so much, but also encouragement to keep up with the weight loss...
Hmm... I guess I'm just rambling now lol I had a great time during break but I really did miss this blog so much! I really wanted to post an update, so even though I didn't have anything to say I just had to frantically type up this post before my next class.
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Monday, March 28, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Hoarding
I have a confession to make.
I am obsessed with hoarding food. I LOVE buying food--tons of it. For example, if I buy cereal I'll buy four boxes. Based on how much I eat, it takes me forrrreeevvveeerrr to finish it. But I love just having the cereal boxes lined up nicely next to each other on the shelf, unopened. When I do open a box, I check the serving size and weigh out single portions and put them into ziploc bags so if I ever absolutely need a snack I just grab a bag and I don't have to worry about overeating. I weigh out the entire box, bag the servings, and put all the little bags back into the box, nice and neat.
I have a problem, lol, I know.
Hmm I wasn't able to weigh myself first thing this morning, but I don't think I lost any weight. :( Yesterday I kept snacking on everything! A few raisins here, and few peanuts there and next thing I know I probably ate an extra 100-200 calories than I had planned. And seeing as how I only eat at most 500 calories a day, that was a lot... Ugh and now it's spring break, which is good of course! but I'm worried that I'll end up eating all day.
My hunger has also started to catch up to me, so it's getting so much harder to stick to my eating plans. Like I said, I keep sneaking in a teensy bite of this and that multiple times a day and it really adds up.
I am obsessed with hoarding food. I LOVE buying food--tons of it. For example, if I buy cereal I'll buy four boxes. Based on how much I eat, it takes me forrrreeevvveeerrr to finish it. But I love just having the cereal boxes lined up nicely next to each other on the shelf, unopened. When I do open a box, I check the serving size and weigh out single portions and put them into ziploc bags so if I ever absolutely need a snack I just grab a bag and I don't have to worry about overeating. I weigh out the entire box, bag the servings, and put all the little bags back into the box, nice and neat.
I have a problem, lol, I know.
Hmm I wasn't able to weigh myself first thing this morning, but I don't think I lost any weight. :( Yesterday I kept snacking on everything! A few raisins here, and few peanuts there and next thing I know I probably ate an extra 100-200 calories than I had planned. And seeing as how I only eat at most 500 calories a day, that was a lot... Ugh and now it's spring break, which is good of course! but I'm worried that I'll end up eating all day.
My hunger has also started to catch up to me, so it's getting so much harder to stick to my eating plans. Like I said, I keep sneaking in a teensy bite of this and that multiple times a day and it really adds up.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Obsession
For as long as I can remember I have been obsessed with food.
When I was 12 years old I became vegan. This lasted for almost two years, when I decided to be vegetarian to open up my choice of foods (my parents also thought I wasn't getting the proper nutrients for a growing child). During my first year of college I became vegan again, and have kept up with that diet for just over two years now.
Being vegan/vegetarian can be difficult. It's not that I was questioning my choice--I love being vegan and knowing that I am doing my part to help helpless animals who are suffering so us humans can enjoy a gross hamburger from McDonald's. But I must admit, sometimes I want to eat a burger! Especially now that I'm vegan, and things like cupcakes and muffins and donuts, etc. AREN'T vegan, I'm left to daydream about eating these delicious foods that I had once taken for granted. Of course, if I were willing I could bake all of these things myself according to a vegan recipe, but the real difficulty lay within actually seeing these foods when I'm out and about and WANTING them there. It would be amazing to go to a fast food restaurant and just order anything I want, but Ican't won't.
Anyway, I'm obviously used to restricting my diet and not allowing myself to eat whatever I want at the time. I limited my food intake when I first became vegetarian, then again when I became vegan, and I will be attempting to do so again now. Although my parents were at first skeptical of me keeping up with a vegetarian diet ("it's just a phase, you won't last a week"), I have been successful thus far (vegetarian for 8 years now...). I have also been able to keep up with a stricter vegan diet for 2 years. I guess we'll see how successful I am with my new plan...
I am 124 pounds today, 2 pounds lighter than yesterday :)
When I was 12 years old I became vegan. This lasted for almost two years, when I decided to be vegetarian to open up my choice of foods (my parents also thought I wasn't getting the proper nutrients for a growing child). During my first year of college I became vegan again, and have kept up with that diet for just over two years now.
Being vegan/vegetarian can be difficult. It's not that I was questioning my choice--I love being vegan and knowing that I am doing my part to help helpless animals who are suffering so us humans can enjoy a gross hamburger from McDonald's. But I must admit, sometimes I want to eat a burger! Especially now that I'm vegan, and things like cupcakes and muffins and donuts, etc. AREN'T vegan, I'm left to daydream about eating these delicious foods that I had once taken for granted. Of course, if I were willing I could bake all of these things myself according to a vegan recipe, but the real difficulty lay within actually seeing these foods when I'm out and about and WANTING them there. It would be amazing to go to a fast food restaurant and just order anything I want, but I
Anyway, I'm obviously used to restricting my diet and not allowing myself to eat whatever I want at the time. I limited my food intake when I first became vegetarian, then again when I became vegan, and I will be attempting to do so again now. Although my parents were at first skeptical of me keeping up with a vegetarian diet ("it's just a phase, you won't last a week"), I have been successful thus far (vegetarian for 8 years now...). I have also been able to keep up with a stricter vegan diet for 2 years. I guess we'll see how successful I am with my new plan...
I am 124 pounds today, 2 pounds lighter than yesterday :)
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