Hello...

I had a great extended weekend.  Which means a bad weekend in terms of food.  My boyfriend came down from Orange County on Wednesday, and from that night through Sunday I pretty much ate nonstop.  And it was all junk food.  I'm not going to weigh in until tomorrow because I knew I wouldn't like the number on the scale if I checked earlier.


I have been reading nonstop since finishing Unbearable Lightness.  I read Flash and Bones by Kathy Reichs, she's awesome especially if you like the show Bones with Emily Deschanel and David Boreanaz (her books are the inspiration for the show).  I am currently reading The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (finally! I know I'm incredibly late..) and it's really good, I haven't been able to put my Kindle down.  <--This is also bad, because I've been putting off running/yoga so that I can continue reading.  Oh well, I'm not too concerned about it because I always get back to running even after I take little breaks.  Plus I've got a 5k coming up this Sunday and races always get me back into running mode.


For the rest of this week I plan on eating steamed broccoli and lettuce spring rolls.  That's what I had today and the spring rolls are incredibly filling, with the only calories pretty much coming from a small slice of tofu I put in them and the peanut sauce I made for dipping.  Other than that, it's mostly lettuce with a thin rice paper wrapping.  :D

114.2

I weighed in this morning at 114.2, which is not a bad start.  I was really lazy today though, and although I had planned to do my normal 4 mile run and 45 minutes of pilates, I only ended up doing a 2 mile run. (I ran to the library lol).


I finished Unbearable Lightness.  It was really good.  I read Wasted a while back, and I have to say I liked this one more.  Ironically, even though Portia de Rossi is an actress I think I can relate to her thoughts and feelings more than what I read in Wasted.  Both are good reads though.


I'm kinda worried about my weight tomorrow.  I ate a lot today.  I kept it at or under 1000 calories because I was able to get away with it yesterday, but of course now I regret it.  At least tomorrow I'm not working at all so I'll get my run and my pilates in no problem.


Thanks Princess Perfection for the encouragement, I feel like I can always count on you! You're right that tomorrow is always a new day, so try not to stress over what's already done and just work on getting better :)

Bloated

Bah so I planned to start my new diet and exercise routine today but of course whenever I plan anything it never works out.  I woke up this morning around 8 or 9, which would have been a perfect time to go out and run. But I had such terrible period cramps and I could barely move, let alone even get out of bed.  I finally got up around noon so I could make some tea (Yogi's Woman's Moon Cycle helps with cramps if anyone else out there gets really painful ones like me) and after 2 cups I had to shower to get ready for work.


I got home and was really good about eating, I had maybe a cup of chow mein that my mom made for an estimated 240 calories, but I binged at around 10 or 11.  I ended up with around 1000 calories for the day.  That was bad, plus I'm bloated because I'm on my period.  Oh, and I completely forgot to weigh myself this morning because I got out of bed so late and when I remembered I already had water and tea in me.


I will start my plan tomorrow, no excuses since my bad cramps only happen the first day of my period.  I'm also reading Portia de Rossi's Unbearable Lightness right now and it's really good if anyone was wondering.


I'll post my starting weight tomorrow!


Thanks PrettyThin2Be and Princess Perfection for the well wishes.  You guys are awesome for sticking around :)

118

I'm not sure if anyone who used to read this blog is even on blogger anymore.  Anyway, I'm back.  I went through a lot of stuff (I'll get to it later), but the gist of it is that I almost lost my beloved boyfriend through a stupid decision and that stupid decision also outed my eating habits to my parents.  


I had been stuck at 111 pounds for nearly a year.  Then at the very end of the year (2011) I had gotten down to 102, so so close to the ever-elusive double digits.  Of course, right when I could finally see some progress on the scale, I stupidly told a guy I thought I would never see again about my eating habits.  He immediately told my parents about it.  I was practically force-fed and gained almost 20 pounds.  I hate him.  I hate him for more than just that incident, he almost ruined the rest of my life and also stalked/harassed me (but I'll get to that later). Oh, he also broke my ana bracelet...


I'm back on here because I need to regain some control over myself.  I've been running and doing yoga off and on, so I really want to get back into my routine for that as well.  My traumatic experience with that stupid jerk also made me turn to writing in recent days, so hopefully I can blow off some steam on here.


On Monday I hope to start some kind of diet plan--which one, I'm not sure yet.  Ideally, I would like to start ABC or 2468 but I want to make sure I stick to it so I might have to so one that I've been more successful with.


Alright, I guess for now I'll just try to catch up on some blogs :)


--Elle Marie