Wow

I've been gone for a long time. Mostly because of work and computer troubles.  Also went to Hawaii :D


Bah I still don't really have a working computer.  My old laptop officially died (hard drive died I believe).  It sucked but then I started using an old laptop by boyfriend fixed.  But the screen on that one died.  So now I'm using my sister's broken laptop.  Half the screen is cracked and it really hurts my eyes but I'm desperate!!


I've been 111 pounds since like May.  Something ridiculous like that.  I hit a plateau and couldn't figure out how to get past it.  Plus I really wanted an excuse to eat "normally" so I basically told myself that I couldn't get past the plateau anyway.  So for the past few months I've been going back and forth between eating normally, gorging myself, and starving myself. bleh.


But now I've got one week left in my apartment before I move back in with my parents...  Ironically, I'm actually kind of looking forward to it because both of my parents will be at work all day so there will be no one to monitor my exercise/eating habits.  It's weird, but the freedom that came with living away from my parents left me with a ton of roommates that I have to watch out for.  I've only exercised at my apartment once because somehow everyone was gone while I had some time off from work.  I could always go out for runs, but I had to limit myself to once a day if someone else saw me go out earlier.  My roomies know about my bad eating habits, but I don't think they know the full extent of it....  Anyway, like I said, I'm looking forward to going home for a little while at least :D


So for the most part I haven't taken diet pills.  I think I've tried 3 different kinds, and I finished the bottles but I've never really noticed their effects.  My main appetite suppresant is coffee/caffeine.  I get by without eating until dinner through that.  But I bought some HCG drops a while ago and just tried them today.  I like the effect so far (probably because there's alcohol in it lol) but we'll see how it goes later in the day and tomorrow.  I'm supposed to eat 1500-2000 calories the first 2 days, then 500 cals for up to 21-40 days.


Ahh gotta go, my battery is dying!!!  Hopefully I will be able to update again soon.