114.2

I weighed in this morning at 114.2, which is not a bad start.  I was really lazy today though, and although I had planned to do my normal 4 mile run and 45 minutes of pilates, I only ended up doing a 2 mile run. (I ran to the library lol).


I finished Unbearable Lightness.  It was really good.  I read Wasted a while back, and I have to say I liked this one more.  Ironically, even though Portia de Rossi is an actress I think I can relate to her thoughts and feelings more than what I read in Wasted.  Both are good reads though.


I'm kinda worried about my weight tomorrow.  I ate a lot today.  I kept it at or under 1000 calories because I was able to get away with it yesterday, but of course now I regret it.  At least tomorrow I'm not working at all so I'll get my run and my pilates in no problem.


Thanks Princess Perfection for the encouragement, I feel like I can always count on you! You're right that tomorrow is always a new day, so try not to stress over what's already done and just work on getting better :)

Bloated

Bah so I planned to start my new diet and exercise routine today but of course whenever I plan anything it never works out.  I woke up this morning around 8 or 9, which would have been a perfect time to go out and run. But I had such terrible period cramps and I could barely move, let alone even get out of bed.  I finally got up around noon so I could make some tea (Yogi's Woman's Moon Cycle helps with cramps if anyone else out there gets really painful ones like me) and after 2 cups I had to shower to get ready for work.


I got home and was really good about eating, I had maybe a cup of chow mein that my mom made for an estimated 240 calories, but I binged at around 10 or 11.  I ended up with around 1000 calories for the day.  That was bad, plus I'm bloated because I'm on my period.  Oh, and I completely forgot to weigh myself this morning because I got out of bed so late and when I remembered I already had water and tea in me.


I will start my plan tomorrow, no excuses since my bad cramps only happen the first day of my period.  I'm also reading Portia de Rossi's Unbearable Lightness right now and it's really good if anyone was wondering.


I'll post my starting weight tomorrow!


Thanks PrettyThin2Be and Princess Perfection for the well wishes.  You guys are awesome for sticking around :)

118

I'm not sure if anyone who used to read this blog is even on blogger anymore.  Anyway, I'm back.  I went through a lot of stuff (I'll get to it later), but the gist of it is that I almost lost my beloved boyfriend through a stupid decision and that stupid decision also outed my eating habits to my parents.  


I had been stuck at 111 pounds for nearly a year.  Then at the very end of the year (2011) I had gotten down to 102, so so close to the ever-elusive double digits.  Of course, right when I could finally see some progress on the scale, I stupidly told a guy I thought I would never see again about my eating habits.  He immediately told my parents about it.  I was practically force-fed and gained almost 20 pounds.  I hate him.  I hate him for more than just that incident, he almost ruined the rest of my life and also stalked/harassed me (but I'll get to that later). Oh, he also broke my ana bracelet...


I'm back on here because I need to regain some control over myself.  I've been running and doing yoga off and on, so I really want to get back into my routine for that as well.  My traumatic experience with that stupid jerk also made me turn to writing in recent days, so hopefully I can blow off some steam on here.


On Monday I hope to start some kind of diet plan--which one, I'm not sure yet.  Ideally, I would like to start ABC or 2468 but I want to make sure I stick to it so I might have to so one that I've been more successful with.


Alright, I guess for now I'll just try to catch up on some blogs :)


--Elle Marie

SGD day 4: 500

Yesterday went pretty well :) I met with the vice principal at my local high school and was able to set up a volunteering schedule with her.  This morning I met with three teachers and will be observing and helping out in their classrooms.


I also somehow avoided a binge yesterday, although I really wanted to eat.  Luckily I got really full fairly quickly when I did eat so I couldn't eat anymore (but I really wanted to--I dunno why)...


Today I went on Wii Fit and it said I lost 1.5 lbs since last time :) Probably water weight but at least I'm back to 111 lbs.  It's encouraging me to keep it up :) I was actually about to eat something for lunch when I turned the Wii on and found out my weight, so I ended up  not eating yay!


Plan for today:

Breakfast:

1

items

Kiwi Fruit or Chinese Gooseberries

Lunch:

1

items

Orange

Dinner:

1.5	cups	Pasta, Spaghetti, Enriched, Cooked
8	oz	Sauce, Spaghetti with Zucchini (Vegan)  (r)

Exercise:
Wii ~-30 cals
Walking to work -201 cals

SGD day 3: 400

Yesterday I did really well.... until midnight :[
I binged and brought my cals up to like 1200... Gah I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't been able to stop eating, esp late at night these past couple weeks.  I'm surprised I've only gained 1 pound.


I guess the only thing I can do is try again today.


Plan:

Breakfast:

1

items

Kiwi Fruit or Chinese Gooseberries

Lunch:

0.5

items

Orange

Dinner:

1

cups

Potatoes, Mashed, with Whole Milk

Snacks:

2	slcs	Bread, Wheat
2	tbsp	Hummus

~439 cals


Exercise:
30 mins Wii Fit (-93 cals)
1 hr walking to work (-201 cals)

SGD day 2: 300

Starting this thing over, but at day 2 since it's Tuesday.


Plan:
1 kiwi
.5 orange
.5 cup mashed potatoes
.5 pb and j sandwich
Total ~329 cals


Already did 30 mins of wii fit.
1 hour of walking (to work, which means I have to leave now so I'm not late!)

I know I haven't been around...

I've been working random shifts so I haven't had a real routine in months.  I hate it.  I need to figure out how to have a routine during chaos like this.  Good news is that I'm working long-ish hours so I actually get lunch breaks.  This is good for me because I refuse to spend money on food, so the only thing I get to eat is whatever I have on me.  Yay for not eating everything in the house!


I'm still 111, and I wanted to be less than 100 by the end of the month.  Not going to happen, but then again I haven't been dieting/working out consistently so I guess I should be glad that at least I haven't gained any weight.